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We are changing

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Here's the truth.  We are changing. I would like to say, from experience that the generation before me, had it much different and I've learnt how to open my mind and show the next generation how to be better than me. This is how  I see it. Some men, and women growing up 60 plus years ago..  had a different mind set.   Men were not to cry, love other men, show what was perceived as weakness.  Anger was expected to keep a woman or child in line, in fact if they were to fear the man, it was a show of respect. Women were not considered persons, had no ability to be more than raise a family.  Feed and tend to the needs of others.  Pay was never going to be equal and if a woman tried to leave a life that wasn't safe, would find herself as a failure, a tramp, an uneducated worthless breath of life. Children were to be seen, not heard.  They were to be fed at a smaller, seperate table and were to emulate their fathers past, to carry on traditions even if they were har

Enough

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I have been accused for being vulnerable when, at times others feel I shouldn't.  The problem is, this is who I am .   Being open about my childhood, my previous relationship and life situations, they are part of me.  Some, the past part of me and I am okay with it. From a young girl, as many I fought to find value from my family.  As a young woman and mother, I swore to myself that I would do my best to give that value to the children I would bare, giving away any self care as I thought it was selfish.  Entering a relationship with the need to ensure the life that I felt was necessary, losing myself was truly what I felt was the last straw.  Over 2 decades later, I couldn't do it and had to make the change.  I wasn't enough to handle things and I was completely and utterly lost.  I had spiraled down knowing the climb out wouldn't be easy and not without tearing open some wounds I had never allowed to heal over the course of this life to date. The leaps of faith

Given a moment

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Exposure is something we all encounter   Exposure to a flower blooming, the sky clearing, grass growing, most importantly, to life.  It gives us the opportunity to learn.   As a young child, seeing a cloud passing is a miracle in itself.  How and why are the questions but ultimately they watch the cloud go by, indiscriminately and mostly, without consequence.   Life passes, time goes on and the cloud has been placed in the back of the child's mind but other exposures have come, developing their thoughts, and perhaps creating or directing the path they are on. These exposures, regardless of the difficulty are something we all encounter and they, will test our inner strength.  A part that isn't typically challenged.  Not to say all exposures will be challenging but some will.   On the other side, where one comes out is where the light resides.  Where one becomes the butterfly from the caterpillar.  It's not anticipated but when it happens, it is the most beautiful m