Your energy, your choice

I’ve been doing some research and reflection on the survival rate of abuse and relationships.  Of course, this sounds quite daunting, it’s brought clarity and quite surprisingly, strength in my life.  

I have started to shift from the past, to the present and am driving towards what the future can be.

My perspective has always been that our bodies are vessels, filled with energy.  This can be positive or negative, and those difference are driven from life's experiences.  The type can be altered depending on which direction we want life to go.  The variances of these two types of energy can be vast however, this again is driving by what has surrounded us and our capacity to survive.

We can sit in the past and let the energy of what has left fill our souls, drive the direction and stop living or we can let go that past energy and start to accept what is coming or will be.  

I’m not a specialist by education but by my personal life experiences.  From an early life of abuse survival to once again falling into the life of instant gratification and unhappiness, I did not live a present life.  To this, I almost let it succumbed me.  I had been willing to accept the fact I wasn’t worth more than what I had experienced.  To that, I walked away for my physical and mental well being. 

I also started to live life again.

A few years prior to doing so, I spoke to someone who was a professional.  I listened and learned.  Once I was ready, I took a step and not only left but valued my soul, my energy to start the journey to who I am today.  I choose calm verses chaos, I choose light verses dark, I choose love verses anger, I choose peace verses war.

Today was the beginning of a new chapter.  Today, I recognize that what energy I have inside my body, is something I want to shine.  I will no longer let the negative, dark and controlling energy be part of me.  Today I choose light, love and happiness and today, I recognize this enough to love myself.